lullanight and goodbye

i don't care about what they say. i don't care what you are and all i think about is today and i may be classified as a hooligan or even worse. I wear dirty clothes or no clothes at all. i abuse booze and aderol. the world goes on around me every day. and i push my way around with no care at all. but then.
the world changed for me.
when the world took you away from me.
i pray extra hard and cry extra long just to see you.
and when each day ends, i renew my efforts to change again
each and every night, i win, but i loose the fight
because i hate sleeping alone
but what's worse is waking up without you.
so now i care about what i have to say and i care alot about the world today. I try to be good and i try to be what you would want me to be. i wear a ribbon of black, tied to a piercing on my back, even when im naked you know that im still in mourning for you. and in the morning i go to church. i listen to the preacher and i try to make it work, i may not believe it but if it means that i could see you i'll try.

so know now wherever you are. i'll be there someday if i believe what they say, if i believe what im saying if i say it all right then ill live it right too. and maybe one day it will all have a point, maybe the day when i don't disapoint you, don't forsake you, and don't mistake your feelings for me. but until that day comes along, all i can do is just sing you this song, so lullabye. and goodnight. and listen closely and maybe i might just leave a clue, a little hint, that i love you.